We do often get desperate or depress…
But mostly those feelings last for a few moment right?
But some are not..
Why?
Because the heart of hatred has already in you…
Your Mum scolds you,
You starts to hate her and doesn’t wants to talk her..
But devil is playing with your feeling inside your heart…
Through my experience,
I get scolded often and even think of slapping or whacking the person i hate,
But what makes me stop?
Is it that im afraid of doing such things?
Or is it those things wouldn’t give me any benefits?
Actually, the answer is simply…
If there is an existing god or holy spirit in you…
He will directs your path…
Do not choose to be desperate..because it leads you nothing..
and that is why God has already proven ..
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.
(The reason i post this, is because this probelm comes to me alot of times, and i bet all of you here also face the same probelm, choose to listen this advice or not is up to your choice, but i do know God loves us all =) . )
Dont know how to describe my story…or maybe reason that im sad…i just want to express my feelings oni. Im kinda of sad today…for some reasons…but not cause by anyone…so no one is gonna feel guilty…Well..guess i have to keep wait…or maybe..just give up..either two of this thing…but i havent choosen yet…im letting myself into a humble and tolerate person…i choose to be sad myself but not the others…i choose to let go the rare chances to talk to the girl i like…i choose to keep my sadness and try to be happy and show the best of me for the rest…i choose to let go the thing i wanted inorder not to hurt or make hard things for the girl i like…i choose to be the best i can…those reasons…make me feel like im a loser..and feels sad…but…fortunately im not angry with those i’ve sacrifice…every single one play a role in their lifes…and mine is to be a person…who keep his sadness away from people and act happy….and most importantly…let go the thing i wanted for the others..I’m such a emotional Saint? But i am still gonna stay firmly strong…no matter what comes to me…im gonna be strong..until..my limit reaches. Yes, i really wants my dreams come true…but what can i do…but even if to sacrifice my dream and not to let the girl i like suffer in between two lover…i would do it. I..will try my best to wait for her answers….and decision..i will..wait…
Who knows whether she will check my blog…but if she see this..what will she think? I do not know, but i think i have strong feeling in you…Xxxxxx a feeling that makes me think about you every single day…every minute….a feeling which makes me fall in love with you…I dont dare to ask u “Do you have feelings on me?” or “Do you love me?” because this is my second chance and i dont want to lose it….who knows…whether u reject me or not…but anyway…when the time comes…i will surely say “I love you” face to face.
Some are my pictures when me and wei wen took when we were playing bowling, and Riley my friend dont know where he get that helmet and then do superman in the church kitchen =.=, enjoy the photos
Dont know whether the love or study or excessive works have driven me crazy these days…my mind keep thinking abt negative stuffs…and start to be more and more aggresive…i dont even know how to control my own inner feelings or my attitude oredi….im feeling sick…and tired….dammit..i really getting worse and worse…thinking stupid stuffs….i need someone to cheer me up..
I write this just to elborate my own feelings about the girl i like..well i found a girl who is very similar to me…our attitudes…believes…even family backgrounds…quiet similar…but…..my other friend likes her too..and i heard rumours about them kissing holding hands and everything…not that i hate him..but i try not to believe that…they seems close to each other…i dont know whats their relationship or my relationship with her…i dont know.I’ve tried before to tell her that i like her..and elaborate everything and i fail cause is too rush i suppose…and now..i dont know when is the right time to tell her…many of you see this post might say that im childish or strong emotional ….but i only know one thing..i trust my own feelings..from now on im still waiting…wait till my PMR exam finish and the right time to tell her…i could not lose this second chance…but im trying to take this risk…I dont know what she thinks about me or my friend…whether she treats me like a friend…or what so ever i dont know..i cant read through her mind…what i really want..is to know when should it be the right timing to tell her? I dont really know she take this serious ornot but i dont mind…and i can feel that she notice my act..shows the crush on her….if im not wrong..but i still dont know whats her reaction or opinion about that.When we find out, it probably come out the bad result or the good result i dont know too, but still i feel im not wrong with my own feelings..hopefully its worthy to wait…keep wait..and wait….i dont even bother to ask her what she thinks..i dont want to force her either…or giving her trouble..i rather keep this to myself…and wait till the right timing to tell her….and suffer myself.But i really love her…I cant give up the feeling i have on her…yet i dont know what should i really need to do…im lost…and only follows fate right now…wait…wait…wait…
Above are some photos of personal photo,family photo,relatives photo,church photos and also scenery photos…of 2009 Hasta La Vista 2009 =D
Hello all~ welcome back to my blog..!! Happy New Year to all of you for the 2010!! Well this new year is gonna be dam stressful and pressure you noe? IS THE PMR EXAM!! Well….im pretty afraid of my result…that shows what my future is….pretty awful ~_~.Anyway take a look on some 2009 photos..enjoy~
Hey all,first of all i would like to say sorry because was being busy for my church activitys and meetings.Well, Merry Christmas to everyone wish you have a good happy new year =D.Tonight, is our Eden Church first opening and port luck,well all the things are not completely operating but most importantly..we all enjoy and have fun in the christmas event.After dinner, me and my youth club members,Adrian,Ise,Eddy,Joyce,Chris,Art,Sky,Stephanie and Amanda perform a performance about the born of Jesus Christ..well is kinda of funny haha espiecally where Eddy act as young Jesus, and i story teller.Well after the performance something real suprising is that Pastor Chew call up my father to give a speech! My father was so nervous and also he doesn’t even know what to speech of..luckily Pastor Chew told him to give a speech about how he get know of Jesus Christ.Well, this is the summary of his speech:”First of all,im not a very good student…as you when im form 6,I hang out with friends everyday instead of studying my subjects…because that time enjoy in Austrialia is the best thing in my life.But when i get my bad result and i come and think of it…this result determine the job that im gonna get for in the future.So i was really pressure and depress…dont know what should i do…BUT! One day my friend XXX name, he was a strong christian, he gave me a small old greenish bible to me and told me Trust in the Lord with all your heart, as he will lead you and direct your path.Well, i must admit i dont even know about Jesus Christ that time.So i treated that bible as a storybook read it everyday.As the more i read the bible,i learnt to pray to God every single night..and finally the result came up.It came out wif full A1s IT WAS REALLY MIRACLE!!! I couldn’t believe it…and since that time…i made it into the XXX University(which is the most famous University in some area of Austrailia but i dont know whats the name =.=).I was so glad and i thank god..praise to him.As a conclusion, to all the young teenagers,you may not know whats in your future,but if you do believe in God and have the strong faith,God will surely guide you and direct you the righteous path..far from the depression and satanic lives…” WOAH!! ALL THE CHURCH MEMBERS SAY AMEN AND CLAP HANDS, man i was so proud of my father so my mother do! I will upload some pictures here later on which contains the view of some events and things happen in this two months holiday.
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